..long time..

..it's been a long time since my last login here in blogspot.. i made few blogs recently but when I visited my blog here, i realized that I have so much memories left here that I can't let this go...wala pa ring papalit sayo... :) ..iba ka pa rin...



..anyway, it's my rest day tonight and i'm blogging...i dont have anything to do right now..this is the first week i have my broadband connection so i'll make the most out of it..earlier this day, after my shift, I slept..... I slept till 6PM! hehe...then I went to Rob Pioneer for groceries.. After that, empty.. I got nothing to do... So I turned on my laptop, connect to the Internet..and downloaded Season 7 of smallville using torrent..hehehe... It really takes a while to download a GIG of files..but it's worth the time and electricity... I'm excited to watch Smallville... :P

..i missed blogging...so... it's really nice to be back and have this first post this 2008! This year was a good start for a new life..new perceptions...new laptop.., new account, new job description, new boss...almost everything is new so I'll make the most out of it... AJA thea! :D

What's a Meantime Girl?

..this is a forwarded e-mail from one of my friends..i just kinda liked the message of it...hmmmm...hehehe... :P meantime girl?? hirap kya ng gnitong situation...masakit...iniisip ko plng, nsasaktan nko...haayy...bkit kc ang mga lalake...madalas manhid! meron nman..oversensitive...hayy....bkit nga ba???

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What's a Meantime Girl?


She's the one you call when you're bored because she
makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're
feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and
be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need
a date to your company's Christmas party, or to go
dancing with on a Saturday night. She's the one you
spend time with between girlfriends, before you find
"The One". You know, the one who you keep around in
the meantime.

She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't
look at her as a real" woman, either. She's not bitchy
enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in
that light. She's too laid-back, too easily amused by
the same things your male buddies are amused by. She's
too understanding, too comfortable? She doesn't make
you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman
does. But she's cool, and nice, and funny, and
attractive enough that when you're lonely or horny and
need intimate female companionship, she'll do just
fine. You don't have to wine and dine her because she
knows the real you already, and you don't have any
facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You're
not trying to get anything of substance out of her.

She's not easy, but you know that she cares about you
and is attracted to you, and that she'll give you the
intimacy you need. And you know you don't have to
explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able
to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of
a relationship or that there's any possibility that
you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won't
bother her that you'll get up in the morning, put on
your pants, say goodbye and go on a date with the
woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally
agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye
hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the
date went.

She's just so cool . . . why can't all women be like
that?! But deep down, if you really think about it
(which you probably don't because to you, the
situation between the two of you isn't important
enough to merit any real thought), you know that it's
really not fair. You know that although she would
never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all
her good points and all the fun you two have, you
don't think she's good enough to spend any real time
with. Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't
have to give in to your needs? She could play the
hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she
really wanted to. But you and she both know that she
probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short,
or a little overweight or has a big birthmark on her
forehead, or works at Taco Bell.

Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot
of really great qualities but has left out the ones
that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she
remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast
companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching
for your goddess who will somehow be everything you
ever wanted in a woman. You'll joke to her that she
should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll
laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux. She
doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors
with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd.
She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of
attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room.
But she wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be
special to someone, too. We all do. She has feelings.
She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger
and better heart than any woman you've ever known
because she's had A front-row seat to The Mess That Is
Your Life, and she likes you anyway.

She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming
in you because although you've given her nothing,
absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.
Anyway, yeah. I'm a Meantime Girl. Been one more times
than I care to admit. I don't know the reason,
really, and at this point I don't even care. I just
want to let every guy know who's ever had the good
fortune to have a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot
of fun, but we cry, too. A lot. And someday we won't
be around.

im into OPM right now...ganda ng songs...currently my favorites...haayyy....

Bakit Ba Inibig Ka?
Erik Santos Feat. Regine Velasquez

Ang sabi mo sa akin
Tayong dalawa'y magmamahalan lagi
Ang sabi mo sa akin
Tayo'y magtatagal
Tunay ang iyong pagmamahal
Ngunit ang lahat ng iyong pangako
Hindi makatotohanan
Kahit ito'y aking inaasam

Chorus
Bakit ba inibig ka
Ang puso ko ngyo'y nangangamba
Kung ika'y nararapat ko bang tanggapin
Bakit ba hindi ko magawang iwasan ang iyong tingin
Ngayon ang puso mo'y mayroong umaangkin

Dapat bang pigilin ang nadarama
Kahit tayo'y laging nagkikita
Wag na tayong umasa
Sa pag-ibig na ito
Masasaktan lamang tayo
Pagkat ang mga pangarap
Hindi mangyayari
Habang sa ati'y may nagmamay-ari

Repeat chorus

Hindi ko kaya ang mawala ka
Hindi ko kayang mag-isa
Tulungan mo akong malimot ka
Pagkat di na dapat pang ibigin ka
Repeat chorus

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Reward
Southborder

Father i didn't really know you
Mother you are so very far away from me
Hopeless birthdays made me cry
My heart kept saying: it's all right
Obviously that's how it was meant to be
Now i know
There was a reason for it all
And i am not lonely anymore
I got my reward
That's why i am loved

I have you
A lover and a friend
You are everything i need
You are the sun the air i breathe
Without you, life wouldn't be the same
Please never go away
And if you go then don't forget to take me with you

The love that i gave was used against me
Honesty seemed a foreign and old-fashioned word
Maybe i just don't understand'cause i'm a stranger in this land
Even friends failed to make me feel at home
Now i know
There was a reason for it all.
..Jestes moja nagroda
You are my reward

..puerto galera vacation..| 03302006 |

..pinoy ako..our baguio trip!

..I LOVE YOU..

..i love this story..very touching..

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?”
I felt disappointment grabbing me.“No… I am going to meet a friend…”

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all. He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…

Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday filled my room, one by one. There were many…Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?I felt so sad; I thought he would remember my birthday.

He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. Then I shouted…
“Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell meI put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…

Honk~ Honk~With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!” HONK~!! “Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…
“One…two… three…” That was how… I started to count the dolls…“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty five…” It all ended with 485 dolls.I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…
“I love you~, I love you~” I dropped the dolls, shocked.
“I….lo..ve…you??” I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
“I love you~
I love you~”
It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much…

“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…

For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life

..a love note..

One night a guy & a girl weredriving home from the movies.
Theboy sensed there wassomething wrong because of the painfulsilence they shared between themthat night.
The girl then asked the boy topull overbecause she wanted to talk.
She told himthat herfeelings had changed & that it was timeto moveon.
A silent tear slid down his cheek as heslowly reached into his pocket & passedher afolded note.
At that moment, a drunk driver wasspeeding downthat very same street.
He swervedright into the drivers seat, killing the boy.
Miraculously, the girl survived.
Remembering thenote, shepulled it out & read it.

"Without your love, I would die."

..BREAKAWAY..

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd prayI could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.

Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I dont know where theyll take me
Gotta keep movin on movin on
Fly away
Break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
Though its not easy to tell you goodbye
Take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Breakaway
Break away

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